Monday, March 3, 2008


What happened? How did this happen? Why did this happen? Was it something I did? Something I didn't do? Did I do enough? Not enough?

Was there something I should have said? Could I have said anything? Did I say enough, or not enough? Did I speak when I should have been silent? Did I allow fear to keep me silent when I should have spoken? Was there something more I could have said? Something I forgot that would have made a difference? Would you have even heard me? Did you try to hear me?

Did I stand bold enough? Strong enough? Tall enough? Was I too weak to stand? Could you see the line in the sand? Did you know which side I stood on? Did I reach far enough? Hold on hard enough? Could I have grasped your hand if I had dared to stretch outside myself?

Would you have seen my hand? Would you have known I was reaching for you? Would you have grabbed hold if only I had tried harder? Could I have tried harder? Would it have made a difference? Does it make a difference now? Is it even up to me?

Do you see how much I care? Do you know I'll stand beside you? Do you know I'll fight for you?

This is just the beginning. You're not alone. I'll be here.


Jenster said...

Oh Shauna,

I have no idea what inspired this post, but it's heart breaking. And beautifully written.


His Girl said...

echoing jenster's comment- can't come up with one more thing to say.


sending up a prayer for whatever inspired this.

Becky said...

Very poignant, Shauna. Makes me want to cry.

I wonder if it's not for the same reason I've been asking myself many of the very same questions.

Sing4joy said...

that seems to be a song to me Shauna. Have you put it to music?

Jen said...

Love this Shauna!

The Daily "B" said...

That's beautiful, Shauna. Very touching reminder...

Shauna said...

Jenster - I debated whether to even post it because I couldn't share the reason behind the questions. It has nothing to do with Chad, though. All good on that front. Thanks for the hugs.

His Girl - Thanks. I appreciate the prayer.

Becky - What are your reasons? We could share. ;-)

S4J - I hadn't thought of it that way. I'll have to go back and see if I can work it that way. Thanks for the suggestion. I'm not sure I'd be any good at writing music. I've never done it before.

Jen - Thanks.

Deb - Thanks. I hope it's a lesson I'll remember.

Travis Erwin said...

Hope all is well soon whatever may be wrong.

Also wanted to let you know I'll get that meme post up tonight.

Jenster said...

Hiya, dear.

Funny, but I never even thought about Chad. :o)

Shauna said...

Travis - It'll work out. Thanks for doing the meme.

Jenster - Just don't want Chad getting a bad rap. ;-)